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charlotte jackson
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United Kingdom
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Current Residence: United Kingdom.
Favourite genre of music: Electro pop/ indie pop /baroque pop/soul/ blue-eyed soul.
Favourite photographer: Don't have a specific favourite
Favourite style of art: Many
Operating System: Windows 8.1
Favourite cartoon character: Totoro
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hey .
I'm sorry to anyone who reads this.


For almost a year my depression has been its worst.
i was diagnosed at 13.
I've tried antidepressants at 13, psychiatry at 13 (uncompleted), counselling at 16/17, antidepressants again at 19, therapy at 19, counselling from 19 onwards.
nothing. has. worked.
Also, I found out I have social anxiety through therapy.

Everything just seems to get worse.

one side of my family is like 'oh okay, you're depressed and cant go outside...ok..but it'll go away'
the other is like:
'you need to get a job, you need to go outside, to need to do this, stop this, stop that'
in 2014 i had a job, i lost it because i couldnt cope and was apparently slow, work experience lead me to wanting to just hide in the bathroom
and cry, i couldnt cope because of everything in my head. i only lasted 3 or 4 days out of 2 weeks.
Going outside is difficult too. I have to be with my mum or a family friend or member of family.
My sleeping has gone to shit.
So, I booked an emergency doctors appointment for reasons im not going to say than it being my depression.
I don't like going to the doctors unless its urgent.
I also hate the nightmares .
Once it was about my grandad hanging himself in the kitchen, the other was me being hostage and a gun pointed to my head.
weird.

I like this song:

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Skeeter Davis- The End Of The World
Brain working overtime. Can't sleep. its 7:40am.
Whoops. Addicted to GaiaOnline now TT u TT
at first i was like: Blockatiel pixel over
now im like: Mike fuck you  'cant stap'Clem Epic face 
Llama Emoji-06 (Depress) [V1] I need sleep.
I'm Dead g'night.
8:11am - im out!
Why do I have to have such an expensive hobby? ; u ;
# and the kids cried out "please stop youre scaring me!" ..#
I have an audition for a local talent competition next week (17th). I
auditioned last year and the judges were impressed, but I didn't get through.
One of the competition organisers invited me to try again after a friend tagged me
in a post about the entry slots.
I'm really nervous.
This is what I'll be singing:
hey .
I'm sorry to anyone who reads this.


For almost a year my depression has been its worst.
i was diagnosed at 13.
I've tried antidepressants at 13, psychiatry at 13 (uncompleted), counselling at 16/17, antidepressants again at 19, therapy at 19, counselling from 19 onwards.
nothing. has. worked.
Also, I found out I have social anxiety through therapy.

Everything just seems to get worse.

one side of my family is like 'oh okay, you're depressed and cant go outside...ok..but it'll go away'
the other is like:
'you need to get a job, you need to go outside, to need to do this, stop this, stop that'
in 2014 i had a job, i lost it because i couldnt cope and was apparently slow, work experience lead me to wanting to just hide in the bathroom
and cry, i couldnt cope because of everything in my head. i only lasted 3 or 4 days out of 2 weeks.
Going outside is difficult too. I have to be with my mum or a family friend or member of family.
My sleeping has gone to shit.
So, I booked an emergency doctors appointment for reasons im not going to say than it being my depression.
I don't like going to the doctors unless its urgent.
I also hate the nightmares .
Once it was about my grandad hanging himself in the kitchen, the other was me being hostage and a gun pointed to my head.
weird.

I like this song:

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Skeeter Davis- The End Of The World

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AFictionAddiction Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
#RandomDeviantLove
Hey there!
I visit a random deviant's page every day (using the "random deviant" button) and try to brighten that person's day at least a little bit. SO! I hope your day is extra fabulous. :D (BTW, I really love your singing.) You seem like a very charismatic person and I enjoy your art! ^^ Do hope you continue to do what you like to do. 

Have a good one!

-Afa-
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww you succeeded. You made me smile.
Thank you!
Keep doing what you're doing! Youre an amazing person! <3
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ihaveabeard15 Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2015
You're pretty cool.
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Aww, thanks dude!:D
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AntediluvianWhovian Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
fav.me/d983oou For you. I hope you don't mind.
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
aww thank you so much * u *
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AntediluvianWhovian Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome :D
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AntediluvianWhovian Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave. How are you feeling? I hope well x
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem.
im ok, :)
 your self?
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AntediluvianWhovian Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Not at all bad, thank you. I'm glad to hear you're okay, especially as I've been reading your posts about depression. Having worked with a lot of sufferers I do understand how difficult it can be for some people, especially young people, to cope. I do hope that didn't come across as patronising!

Keep us all updated on what you get up to :)

Best,

Rob x
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Not at all, Rob. :)
Ive been going to therapy the past 4 or 5 weeks but its on hold at the moment as they're deciding who to refer me to because im not ready for change.
Ive been putting on weight instead of losing it and ive not been wanting to go to gym. I havent cut for a couple of months, but i still think about it and theres chance of relapse, but hopefully i dont.
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IllyDragonfly Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2015   General Artist
Thank you for faving my cosplay photo of Silent Hill!!!!
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem ! :D
awesome cosplay!
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SecretLifeOfSophie Featured By Owner May 21, 2015  Student Photographer
Hug 
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner May 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey boopa-doop! C: :hug:
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asylumimages Featured By Owner May 2, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Spanks for the fav potato :)
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner May 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem tomato c:
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asylumimages Featured By Owner May 3, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
:P
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2015   Artisan Crafter
Happy Birthday, Charlotte! Party
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :D
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2015   Artisan Crafter
Your very welcome! :) (Smile) 
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itsmyccrets Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy Birthday Charlotte!!!
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you ^^
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itsmyccrets Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
You're very welcome...

I hope you enjoyed Your Day!!!

...and thank You for the fave...:tighthug:...
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Pitaten2 Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem c:
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